We sometimes entangle ourselves in the petty things in life... and abandon life.. abandon words.. So strange that the words never abandon us.. life never abandons us.. not till its time to leave>>
Long it has been indeed. But sometimes we must let the feelings fill us up.. and overflow.. that gives a real joy of expressions.. ..
Life has been rushing.. chasing a lost dream.. looking for newer meanings.. trying to hold onto things that wouldn't last.. and in the midst I stand.. observing and understanding--observing the many things that happen from dawn to dusk.. and understanding the thoughts, the feelings they leave behind. How I wish I could change something.. the way I feel today, for I feel miserable for what I feel. But there are things beyond the control of the mind..
Maybe I can hide my thoughts from the world, maybe no one would ever know what goes on inside my mind.. my thoughts, my feelings.. but it wouldn't take away the uneasiness from within me.
I see the heart endlessly looking for reasons .. in vain hope that a reason will make it all better.. easier. But it doesn't work that way. We look for reasons not for ourselves but for explanations that we have to give to everyone else...but what the other thinks doesn't matter. A reason doesn't change anything. It doesn't change anything for the heart..
in some far-away land maybe there is peace.. away from everything.. everyone. Because it's scary here.. afraid of being misunderstood.. afraid of being hated for what I am feeling.. and for the feelings that are fading away. A step towards something else may make life better.. something thats pulling me towards itself..the quest to find myself.. something thats helping me understanding the 'real' but there is a shattered world left behind.. and the heart.. torn between the two worlds.. not knowing which way to go.. .. to chase a lost dream or to look for newer meanings or to hold onto something that's not real anymore.. that wouldn't last..
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looooooong time!!! its good to read ur post after this long gap...and again beautifully ritten.
will try and be more regular boss! thanks :)
"We look for reasons not for ourselves but for explanations that we have to give to everyone else...but what the other thinks doesn't matter."
An argument that I for one, almost always have going inside my mind, and yet haven't been able to decide if I agree or disagree, cause 'peace' is a completely relative term, and if what others think is meaningless, then you won't need to go away from everyone, from anyone. There won't be a fear of being misunderstood, as the question of being understood itself has been trashed. But again, we are humans, and are defined as 'social beings', and there you go, in the loop once again.
social beings yes.. truly agree with that. But between self and society if there is a choice needed to be made?
Its a choice we always find ourselves making, and yet not being definite in our decision.
the uncertainity maybe.. signifies life..
Small font size...finally! :D
haha.. my IE showed it small only man. just downloaded firefox and realised how huge it was.. :S
Maybe I can hide my thoughts from the world, maybe no one would ever know what goes on inside my mind.. my thoughts, my feelings..
but it wouldn't take away the uneasiness from within me.
egjactly!!!
Nice one der - and yes after a long time...Hope ur prep is all good...Incase i don't get to wish at dat time - GoOd LuCk!!!
P.S** - But as Rungta said..."what is ur gd luck gona do 4 ma exam bav? Only rohit's will do Miracles der..."[hehehe rungta gotcha]
thanks a lot varenya.. i'm sure we all find ourselves in such situations every once in a while..
bavani.. didnt quite get the good luck thing in the end.. lol.. but thanks anyways.!! AND when are you updating your blog ???
Don't blame you Sonika for not understanding what that fool wrote about the "Good luck" in her last comment. Thing is she'd once wished me good luck when I was going for a practice test. Since I hadn't prepared at all, I told her that the luck wouldn't help me and she's been after my life since that time! I know it was a bit rude and I apologized, but why would she accept that.
hehe.. got it now :D
Sometimes things seem one way while they are actually another...One may think they have lost something, only to realize later that they didnt lose it, in reality they were only afraid of loosing it that made it seem as if they had lost the very thing...
Dont you think so?
Great piece of writing.. Just love the way you can transmit emotions with your words ... its an art..
thanks buddy.. :)but that kinda confused me..lol.. ya maybe sometimes its the fear of losing itself that eventually leads to losing something dear..
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