[moving through] shades of gray..

I have wished for too long now, to step out of darkness.. and even though it's a known place now, it discomforts me.. and I haven't written for so long, fearing I would be pulled back there again .. in the words..
. I want to break my fear now, I want to know where I belong.. through the words that have held me back.. through the words that will take me through..

"The truth is that our finest moments are most likely to occur when we are feeling deeply uncomfortable, unhappy, or unfulfilled. For it is only in such moments, propelled by our discomfort, that we are likely to step out of our ruts and start searching for different ways or truer answers."
- M. Scott Peck

and sometimes it's the noise that we need to escape that drowns us .. or were they silences..?
words are losing me now, and I am losing words ..two different worlds are pulling me toward themselves ..

I sit here and dream here of how it would be when you are close.. how the little time we hold, will make us squeeze our dreams..
I'm scared I will fail you
I'm scared I feel not good enough

there's a world that looks beyond me, grabs me and pushes me back into the unknown.. and the known silences..
and there's you, holding me gently.. walking every step.. until eternity reasons love.. until eternity holds our love..

Hold on tight to this moment
Don't let me slip away
Walk with me through life
Don't let me lose my way..

Hold on tight to this dream
Don't let it disappear
As long as we walk together
There will be nothing to fear..

Hold on tight to this moment
Don't let it fade away
For I do love you with all my heart
Sometimes, I'm just scared to say ..